what do you hope to accomplish before the end?
the only thing i expect to know is love. to accept and appreciate
last night i had a strange dream, which i guess you could say became lucid at a certain point. That point being, when i attempted to turn on a light switch. I’m not sure where I was exactly, or what any of the circumstances might’ve been, at this point. so i had the thought turn on the light, turn on the light, but quickly realized, it’s not going to work, this is a dream. (I learned from waking life that you can’t control the lights by a switch in your dreams, nor can you read.) But still my arm reached in the room, around the side of the wall, and at first there was no switch, but then i found it…but as I was thinking “it’s not going to work” the lights came on, or something, but i was pulled through the ceiling, only it was like the ceiling had opened, and the room, and the next destination were blurring together.
On another note, i feel like my dreams are in sepia. there are colors, but everything is dulled down, the light that came on, was a very pale orange. But in the next part of my dream. It seemed like I was standing at the edge of a drive way or something. I remember seeing a familiar face walking down the street, so it makes me feel like I was in LaGrange, or some alternate version of it, that’s also mixed with Atlanta, because there was a bus coming down the street. But before that. I saw another friend of mine, Anna. and we had some sort of interaction in the house, and had come outside, but I’m not really sure what. I know her parents were there, and they don’t like me, so it was sorta awkward. They were trying to get her to come with them. and they had walked off down the street, toward the bus stop. I was behind them. that’s when i saw the other familiar face, walking past me, but when I called out to him, he didn’t really notice me. I remember his blue shirt. He said something, but I don’t think it made any sense. So i started walking in the direction my friend and her parents had gone.
I’m guessing that at one point my friend might have been topless, because she had an inside out jersey of some sort wrapped around her. She was started to adjust it, and her father who was walking beside her asked her where she got it. And she answered something like the laundry or whatever. Her mother was already at the bus stop, and I think had gotten on the bus. While she was readjusting her shirt, I noticed a mark on her back. It looked like a scab of some sort, and I could see the red blood crusted over, and I noticed the contrast between that, and her pale, pale skin. I don’t know where we were walking…but I remember i was wearing leather gloves, and a cap that had ear flaps, and it was very close to my head, which is probably impossible considering the amount of hair i have right now…but anyway, that’s all I remember about this dream
A dream I had two nights ago, had me thinking about my father. I dreamed that I walked into a chinese restaurant. I was back in FarRockaway, and I was in various restaurant situations within the dream. But I came across a man who, I’m now starting to believe was my grandfather, not my father. They are almost identical, and I’ve dreamed of my father in place of him in the past. He said if I had come any earlier, I would’ve seen his girlfriend. And i remember the comment catching me off guard, and I was kinda like, “for real?” and he was just like, well you know, and gave a little shrug. And I remember thinking, I have to tell my mom. I can’t let her go out like this. But anyway, that was the highlight of our interaction. I next remember going up to the menu, and debating about what I was going to eat. And this might sound strange…
But eating chicken has come up a lot in my dreams lately. I think chicken was the only thing on the menu at this restaurant. And, maybe last night, or the night before, I had a dream that I had taken a bite out of a wing I found in my car before throwing it out of the window. And I feel like I’ve had another dream involving chicken. I don’t really know what to make of it, but the other night, I met an intriguing woman. This is real life, haha. Long story short, she works for a buddhist school, and is definitely involved in the spiritual/metaphysical realm. She told me that her spiritual experiences started when she moved to Philadelphia some years ago, and that when she told her psychic friend she’d be moving back, her friend told her that she’d be making lots of connections through her house. She’s roommates with one of my classmates, and their house was used as a set for a movie I worked on, in addition to a class project.
Anyhow, I inquired about her diet, because I had read/heard that as the earth vibrates higher, more and more people would become vegetarian, and abandon their usual diets, for something that allowed them to increase their frequency. And she told me that she used to be a vegetarian, but had to stop for that very reason. She said her body needed animal protein, because it grounded her, and her vibration was getting too high. I didn’t get what she fully meant by that, other than she started to feel disconnected, and like her head was always swirling. I think she mentioned headaches as well, as far as physical symptoms. But I think she was mainly referring to emotional/non physical situations. So yeah…I’m not sure what my dreams are telling me in that regard.
Perhaps me eating meat in my dreams is helping me stay grounded in the dream world?
Thoughts, comments, suggestions? I’m open!